Baby steps.

I always feel like my birthday is the start of a new year for me instead of the universal New Year that we all celebrate... and with good reason! I got back with Walmart last month, got new glasses so I can actually SEE what I'm supposed to, and fixing to make a move soon. Life is good. I am, overall, pretty happy now, and I think I can possibly make some changes in medication. My only fear is anxiety and all that...I have like, three different medication prescriptions to keep it all at bay and I still gave in to a pack of smokes (which I only have one-three at the most, and only at work). *sigh* Baby steps.

Strange, Strange World...

It's a strange world I see... one status is a Daddy's girl wishing her Daddy a happy birthday and many more to come... the one after that, is a daughter commenting how beautiful her step-dad's funeral was and is now driving to the cemetery for the burial... and I think of my own... it kinda feels like a lot of my family is dead to me anyways.

Freewriting.

I've decided to start freewriting on my blog instead of the occasional banter about my miserable life and maybe, just maybe, I can be... not so miserable. So the next post to come will have a topic. I need to either seek this topic or have suggestions on the topic. I don't know who reads my blog, probably no one other than the few that I've given the link to, despite my insights telling me my blog has a total of 516 page views as of now. Maybe I can get a job writing someday. I like writing. Kind of. I like teaching more but I hate the idea of having to go through all the schooling for it. Ew. Anyway, words words and more words to come. Cheers.

Mirror, Mirror...

I honestly don't like myself lately. I try to accommodate for other people for the wrong reasons. I end up hurting people for my own selfish ones. I lose people because of my actions. My words. My dreams are all about post apocalypse. Apocalypse is about seeing a personal problem in ones self so post is getting past that, perhaps? I just want to wake up from this nightmare. I hate it here.

Where are you now?

http://www.news8000.com/news/Homeless-man-found-dead-near-downtown-La-Crosse/-/326/17654600/-/7b9oug/-/index.html

As I came across this news article today, I'd been thinking for the last month or two about researching for a better opportunity for the homeless and diseased individuals who need help. A lot of them turn to the Salvation Army, who openly discriminates against homosexual individuals and people that have addictions. These are the two types of people that need the most help, in my opinion. A lot of the LGBT community start out as homeless teenagers that have been shunned and turned away from home and family because of lack of understanding. I've already decided that I'm going to school to be a psychiatrist specifically for teenagers that have issues at home. Adolescents that have trouble identifying themselves. I want to be able to help them. Turn them in the right directions. Encourage them not to give up.
The same goes for those who suffer addictions. Alcoholism, drugs, etc.; even smoking, if they want help quitting. I want to help them see that there really is good in this world still. And I want them to be a part of it. I want them to become educated and happy and live a prosperous life. Stand up to the oppressors and be proud of the strong individual that you've become. We are all alone, therefore, we are all together.
Come to me, I will feed you. If you are cold, I will wrap my arms around you and share my warmth. If you smell, I will give you some soap and show you the warm showers. :)
I've started to learn simple herbal medicine that helps those who are poor and it's really easy to treat things like an earache from being out in the cold too long or a fever that just needs to be medicated and nourished properly. Don't have medical coverage? I'm going to raise money to pay for that stupid hospital bill, just try not to over do it, because money is unfortunately an object and we have your brothers and sisters to take care of too. You're all my children. You're all God's children. He may seem silent, but he speaks  through all of us on occasion. You just need to listen.

One Love.

Three Years.

Missing my big brother a lot lately. I remember, if I had a problem, I could talk to him about anything and he always made sense when giving advice. I just kinda wonder what he'd think about everything I've been through for the last three years. I've become a more mature person in general and have a bigger outlook on life thanks to him. Thanks, Corey. I love you, Bub.

Pumpkin Pie Milkshakes

 


Ingredients & Measurements:

2 cups Vanilla Ice Cream

1/2 cup Milk
1/4 cup Cream or Half & Half
1 Tbsp Vanilla Extract
2/3 Pureed Pumpkin
1/2 Tbsp Pumpkin Pie Spice
1/3 Cup Graham Cracker Crumbs
2-3 oz. Bourbon
Frosting & Sprinkles

 

 

 

 

 

 

Instructions:
 

Add all ingredients to a blender until mixed well.
Rim glasses with a very light coating of frosting
and dip in sprinkles. Pour the
shake into the cup and sprinkle
cinnamon on top. Top with
whipped cream if you want & enjoy!