Baby steps.

I always feel like my birthday is the start of a new year for me instead of the universal New Year that we all celebrate... and with good reason! I got back with Walmart last month, got new glasses so I can actually SEE what I'm supposed to, and fixing to make a move soon. Life is good. I am, overall, pretty happy now, and I think I can possibly make some changes in medication. My only fear is anxiety and all that...I have like, three different medication prescriptions to keep it all at bay and I still gave in to a pack of smokes (which I only have one-three at the most, and only at work). *sigh* Baby steps.

Strange, Strange World...

It's a strange world I see... one status is a Daddy's girl wishing her Daddy a happy birthday and many more to come... the one after that, is a daughter commenting how beautiful her step-dad's funeral was and is now driving to the cemetery for the burial... and I think of my own... it kinda feels like a lot of my family is dead to me anyways.

Freewriting.

I've decided to start freewriting on my blog instead of the occasional banter about my miserable life and maybe, just maybe, I can be... not so miserable. So the next post to come will have a topic. I need to either seek this topic or have suggestions on the topic. I don't know who reads my blog, probably no one other than the few that I've given the link to, despite my insights telling me my blog has a total of 516 page views as of now. Maybe I can get a job writing someday. I like writing. Kind of. I like teaching more but I hate the idea of having to go through all the schooling for it. Ew. Anyway, words words and more words to come. Cheers.

Mirror, Mirror...

I honestly don't like myself lately. I try to accommodate for other people for the wrong reasons. I end up hurting people for my own selfish ones. I lose people because of my actions. My words. My dreams are all about post apocalypse. Apocalypse is about seeing a personal problem in ones self so post is getting past that, perhaps? I just want to wake up from this nightmare. I hate it here.