You know what sucks?

When you want to do something that you usually do and at the same time, you don't want to at all.
You think you're tired, but you know you're not going to fall asleep any time soon.
Remembering the smell of someone that you wish you never had to remember ever again.
You're hungry and can't bring yourself to eat anything.
You want to smile or laugh and it just seems impossible.
To walk out in the sun... but you sleep all day.
Life.
Live it.